Yesterday was one of the worst days I've had since being diagnosed. I can't describe how sad I was and it was coming out in tears all day (the sobbing kind). I even cried when we were at lunch and I hate to cry in front of other people. What a day! As always, Eddy was my rock. I even got tears and mascara on his shirt first thing in the morning but he didn't care (kind of blends in with the paint). When he holds me I can hear his heart beating and it is very calming.
Today I am evil, but it didn't start out that way. I think I need to eat first thing in the morning because it makes me very cranky. I yelled at Eddy over the phone, hung up on him and I've been swearing like a sailor. Wish I had a sound proof box I could go into for some screaming! I plan on taking a walk in a few minutes to clear my head and start my day over. Can't scream walking around the neighborhood because they might bring me one of those white jackets that hook in the back!
Tomorrow is going to be a better day. First it is Friday and second I am willing myself into a great mood! I hope we can go do something fun this weekend....we've worked on estimates the last two weekends with no fun time.
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